I feel emotionally shredded.
I don’t know how to talk about this. I guess most of my friends have heard some or even most of my issues at one time or another- they all know a lot of my issues stem from my relationship with my mother. I’ve heard all my life from people that it can’t be as bad as all that, she’s family and I should make more of an effort, or variations on that theme. I’ve rarely actually told those people the extent of the problems, when I talk about these things, I usually downplay them or minimize them so as not to upset people.
My psychiatrist automatically came out and said that the situation was child abuse, before I was anywhere near done. He seemed indignant.
I can’t explain how much of a relief it is to hear someone say that to me.